140529

First night in the new apartment. 

There's still a lot to do. 

But already, this place feels like home. 

I am happy. 

140516

Today I am so utterly happy that words possibly can't express it.
There is this bubbly happy feeling inside of me and I just feel like bursting.
I can't even describe this feeling.. it's just.. such utter happiness.
And it will be even more happiness when I can be sure that I'm getting the tickets.
I need them. I really need them.

xo.

140513

Tonight I feel a bit empty again. 

I think I'm trying to fill in that hole by writing something that doesn't even really have a meaning. 

We visited our summer cottage during the weekend. The evening was beautiful, it looked like someone had painted the sky. It felt unreal. That somethig like that simply couldn't exist. With the lake all calm it mirrored the sky's colours so beautifully. It was like a fairytale. 

I also went swimming. The lake was cold and I felt so chilly for a long time. Even dived. It really was cold. 

But I did feel some sort of accomplishment after doing it. It was a good, long-lost feeling. 

Today started a new module at uni. I'm already tired but I will struggle through this too, as always. 

Next weekend it's the convention. I am a bit nervous, I can admit. Going by myself doesn't feel like such a good idea anymore.. But well, I am hoping for the best~ 

xo. 

140509

I decided to start blogging again because... because I can?
I don't even know really.
I wanted something to waste my time with, something to keep me distracted. So often I feel the urge to write something so I thought why not to have a blog again? I'm not forcing anyone to read it but at least I then have a place to write on. That probably didn't make much sense but does it really need to?
I don't know.

I will be posting here... a lot of random stuff, most probably. Pictures, thoughts, texts. Everything that I generally speaking feel like worth(?) sharing. I don't know this is maybe something between a scrapbook and a diary? We'll see. Maybe I know better after a couple of entries.

I suppose it's usual for people to do some sort of an introduction always in the first post?
Well, in case you have gotten lost and are reading this text; hello, hi, good day or evening, whatever suits you. For me it's evening when I'm writing this.
I'm a 20-year-old business student from Finland, struggling through the last courses of her first year in university. In the great world of internets I usually go by the name suyenin with a possible addition of the number 712 which simply comes from the day I was born, 7th of December. Things I like include but are not limited to Japan and things you might list under it. I am very fond of streetstyles - gyaru is fabulous, lolitas are such cuties and visual kei just rocks my world, if you know what I'm talking about we should become friends I mean it - and would like to work my fashion better. When I have time (meaning every evening, don't be fooled) I sit in front of my computer, write and roleplay. And sometimes cry. I am a very emotional person so please be gentle with me.

As you can see, my text usually flows pretty much just as freely as my thoughts.
Sometimes (mostly?) I don't make any sense.

Right now I want ice cream and don't think I have anything more to say.
Nice to meet you, let's be friends?

xo